Last night I took 25 mg of 2-CB. Having only done 15 mg one previous time nothing could have prepared me for what I was going to see, hear, think, and feel. The climb up was nothing special, the usual disorientation and mild euphoria. All I keep thinking is "please show me something special". I kept getting higher and higher and at one point my fear reflex kicked in. How far am I going to go?
I closed my eyes and began to see some of the most beautiful patterns morph into living organism. At first they seemed to have an insect aspect to them, often mutating into butterflies. I'd open my eyes and see lights fractal around the edges. Music once again became multidirectional - not being able to distinguish where it was coming from I had to just close my eyes and feel it inside of me. Walking became especially difficult as I kept losing my balance. At one point I had to just sit down, close my eyes, put my hands over my face and just experience life to its fullest. My teeth began clenching up very much like with 2-CB's cousin MDMA. I felt a rush of energy that went from my torso to my lower extremeties and out of my body all together. I felt unusually dichotomous - a part of everything and at the same time detached from everybody else. Besides all the physiological effects I was experiencing, my mind was on overdrive.
Energy seems to be a constant theme during my trip. I began thinking about energy and how it can transform and carry on. I began to think of myself as energy and that when I die I too will transform and continue *existing*. This wasn't reincarnation but rather a transfer of sort where my energy will continue on some physical level even if I'm not alive. I found great comfort in this thought and all of the sudden death did not worry me anymore. I was living for a change!
I was on my back near a lake looking up at the sky. I felt a part of everything and it seemed to me that I could sense energy all around me. Trees, flowers, grass, the water - they all seem to have an entity of their own. I kept thinking about a supreme being and the entire hierarchical nature of it all. All of a sudden I became filled with a sense of peace and had a realization: God/dess is merely an energy that people can be a part of and become in tune with without the traditional "I'm not worthy" worship mentality.
I think entheogens have already shown me the path and it is now up to me to follow it. I think I got the message and it is not time to hang up the phone.
An Hispanic American man, aged 23, working as a social studies teacher
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