After approximately six years in the "Rave Scene", and numerous experiences with many hallucinogens, I had a spiritual encounter with ecstasy. A friend of mine was having a small house party at his warehouse and many of us decided to take "E". Everything was normal, or to say, not unlike any other trip I had been on before.
Feeling warm and friendly, not to mention extremely social, I made my way through the different gatherings of people. After a couple of hours, I started to feel as though I didn't have a lot of energy. Deciding to go to another room, I found some more friends there and was more comfortable. There was an empty couch for me to lay on and talk with others. However, everyone slowly started to leave the room as they each went on to their own adventure. Many of them asked if I was okay. I would reply, "Yeah, I'm fine. I'm just really high." Then they would leave the room. The last person decided to leave the room and finally turn the light off.
I could hear the loud house music in the other room and slowly felt my breathing change. It started to slow as though I was losing control of my involuntary reflexes. I was aware of this and seem to breathe deeper, but again it was extremely slow. Everything seemed slow at this point. It was pitch black, as there were no windows in this particular room. I became a little anxious inside. I guess because I felt I was losing control of myself and felt very heavy and spaced. I said out loud to myself " I just need a moment of clarity. I just need a moment of clarity." My eyes were almost shut at this moment. Then I opened them wide and gazed upon a brilliant spectacle. I was not frightened, but couldn't believe to see what appeared as an angel hovering over me. Just to the left of the couch was a creature (I say this because I truly don't know what it was) with streams of pastel light flowing through its entire existence. I slowly blinked to sort of cleanse what couldn't be possible before my eyes. As I did this, it blinked with me also. I actually watched its eyes blink with mine. It didn't have the eyes of a human ( and I don't believe this was some sort of terrestrial). The eyes were human shaped, but there were no eyes in there. Just the blackness of the room. It a had a pleasant expression, and this pure flowing light throughout its face. It appeared to have the shape of wings and the light dissipated at all of its edges. There was a translucence about it and yet the rest of the room stayed pitch black, as it was not actually lighting the room. I saw this brilliant creature for approximately twenty seconds, watching its colors move and transcend into one another. Then it was gone.
I sort of snapped out of my trance and decided that it was time to go and be with some people. I was a little shaken up and confused about the entire experience. I went out and sat next to a good friend of mine and decided not to say a word. However I kept running over in my head what could have triggered this to happen. I truly felt that I may have almost died that night and something came to let me know that it wasn't time. Or maybe it was a chance to see my guardian angel.
I left that night with a feeling of warmth and the memory of something
incredibly spiritual, and possibly more clarity on my path in this life.
25 year old woman from San Francisco, USA
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