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Religion and Psychoactive Sacraments:
An Entheogen Chrestomathy

Thomas B. Roberts, Ph.D. and Paula Jo Hruby, Ed.D.
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Restless Is the Heart:
A Perspective on Love and Violence and Their Relationship.

Kimball, Robert. (1988).
Bristol, IN: Wyndam Hall.

ISBN: 1-55605-021-6 hardcover
1-55605-022-1 paperback
Description: Hardcover, viii + 173 pages.

Contents: 7 chapters, afterword, references, about the author.

Note: The author is Professor of Theological Ethics and Dean of the Thomas Starr King School for the Ministry, Berkeley, California, and a member of the doctoral faculty of The Graduate Theological Union.

Excerpt(s): I had an interesting day back in 1964, when Sam, Bill and I took advantage of an offer by a psychiatrist friend to take some carefully produced and measured Swiss LSD. It was my one experience with this powerful drug. ...

Sam and Bill's talking began to annoy me. Then the annoyance would pass. This happened a few times-annoyance/no annoyance. Back and forth. Then the annoyance started to stir up more and more anger in me, while the no annoyance turned more and more to laughter. The back and forth rhythm continued.

As the intensity of the feeling built up (and the quality of the emerging feeling gets more and more difficult to report) I began to think of East and West, and of that aspect of Eastern thought where the individual dissolves or merges into the great Atman soul, and that aspect of Western thought where the individual focuses more and more into the concreteness of the individual self. Back and forth. Back and forth.

The back and forth rhythm both continued and built, and suddenly a knowing-feeling happened, the rhythm stopped, there was a oneness of all. Different as both ends of the pendulum rhythm were, all of a moment, they were one and the same. There was no distinction of East or West, thinking or feeling, laughter or anger.

I relaxed and knew the LSD trip had begun. I followed the psychiatrist's advice regarding the frightening. "If something scary appears, don't flee from it, go towards it, and it will disappear." And it did. The somethings all became nothing to fear.


There is a pulse of rhythm between East and West which can give life to our one world. There is the capacity of East to address, not flee, Nothing; and to know, not hide from, peace.

My hard-to-describe moment of knowing-feeling on a king sized mattress, may not have been simply a drug induced state. With all due respect for our differences, we may all, East and West, be more basically human than otherwise. (pages 117-119)

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